Well, I got here to the hospital today and the doctor told me that tj has a infection in his intestines. So now they are going to put him on antibiotics. There was a spot on his leg that was hurting him so they did a scan and it's the cancer. So they are going to radiate that part of his leg to get rid of the pain. The doctor said that wasn't the only part where there was cancer. I noticed the lumps on his head. The doctor basically said that this chemo didn't do much either. So radiation is the way to go now until she talks to her team. So I'll keep ya'll posted on that.

They actually gave my son some morphine and he sparked right up so they are going to give him that every 3 hours or as needed. He was nice and talking to the nurse. So that's a good sign. They are going to do radiation to the leg for the next 4 days and then we can go home that next thursday. They have to put a feeding tube in his nose to his throat so he can eat and get his meds and I don't have to worry about him getting upset that he has to orally take his meds.

Im just really scared of everything that is happening. When he does come home we are going to do the shopping spree. Then relax at home and just make him happy. I'm really scared I can't stop crying. I think I'm going to alcohol again. I don't want that but it's seems that way.

Well let me go I just gave myself a headache. I'll keep ya'll posted.