Well i spoke to Dr. Bekele today and he was asking me what i think should be done. should he stay in the hospital or go to the Hospice unit or go home. To be honest i want to take him home. Frankly the Dr. said the same stuff he is on here at the hospital is the same stuff he can be on at home. they are going to sit down with my mother and explain to her that it will be better at home. because she seems to think she has more of a say so with what goes on with tj. so they are going to tell her he is going home. the cancer is spreading faster this sat when i saw him his face was a lil swollen, now his right eye is completly swollen shut and his neck area is swollen. they think that he may stop breathing because of that.

im going to set up a metting with a funeral director that way i dont have to worry about it later. everything will be taken care of. i have to call tjs life insurance. im really getting tired of everyone asking how im doing. they have to know i feel like shit. they have to know that i dont feel good. why even ask, but at the same time i expect people to ask. i guess if they didnt i would wonder why they didnt ask.

Yamil was speaking with his boss about taking a leave of absense from work. so he can be with us. they ha e foundations that will help us with bills. but i want to keep busy if i sit still ill go crazy. i only work 4 hr shifts anyway. im going to have to tell Fanta that the monday nights are out of the question. because if something happens with tj im going to just leave the job customers and all.

but they are thinking of letting him go home next week maybe tuesday. but ill keep you posted.